Independence and limited worldview – by Lei

Recently we took Jaiden to an amazing aquarium where we saw emperor penguins, big jelly fish, sea horse, etc. There were so many cool things that we felt like we didn’t have enough time to see everything.

One part of the aquarium, we had a chance to walk in a tunnel with all kinds of amazing sea creature swimming above and beside us. I put Jaiden on my shoulders to ensure he got the best view. To my disappointment, Jaiden kept on wiggling asking to let be down so he can walk on his own. He kept on repeating one of his recent favorite phrases 自己走 which mean “let me walk by myself”. Jaiden loves to run around on his own and this is a great trait. However this time, I knew at his height would limit his view to many of the interesting sights. When I refused to let him down, he kicked and screamed. Both Diana and I tried to explain to Jaiden that being held and walking with Daddy was the best thing for him as it would ensure he can have the full experience the amazing exhibits.

While talking to Jaiden, it dawn on me that he may not understand us. He does not have our experience or worldview. In his limited understanding, many of the fun moments in life have come while he was running around by himself. Jaiden has never been in an aquarium so there is no way he can comprehend the possibilities of he could see.

Jaiden’s childish behavior is not limited to a 2 year old. In my life I often insist that I know what is best for me even though my worldview is limited. I have done something a certain way and it was fun so I insist on “my way” over and over again. I fail to recognize the possibility of something more, something much grander than what I have experienced before. What a shame that our limited worldview and desire for independence can deprive us of great and amazing experiences with our Papa.